#he confuses me so much #i can never decide whether I want you to be my father or my boyfriend
Give all of us gathered here tonight the strength to remember that life is so very fragile…
‘Two years ago, I was afraid of wanting anything. I figured wanting would lead to trying and trying would lead to failure. But now I find I can’t stop wanting. I want to fly somewhere on first class. I want to travel to Europe on a business trip. I want to get invited to the White House. I want to learn about the world. I want to surprise myself. I want to be important. I want to be the best person I can be. I want to define myself instead of having others define me. I want to win and have people be happy for me. I want to lose and get over it. I want to not be afraid of the unknown. I want to grow up and be generous and big-hearted, the way people have been with me. I want an interesting and surprising life. It’s not that I think I’m going to get all these things. I just want the possibility of getting them.
it’s different for girls.
We don’t have any money. I’m in the tenth grade. It was my first time. And I threw it away, and I don’t want to throw my life away. It’s just…It’s just really obvious that my mom wants me to have this abortion. Because…Because I was her mistake and she has to struggle and hurt every day. And she wanted better. And I knew better. Then I was just thinking, you know, forget what she wants, like, what do I want? And maybe I could take care of this baby and maybe I would be good at it. And I could love it and I would be there for it. And then I just think about how awful it would be if I had the baby and then I spend the rest of my life resenting him or her. Do you think I’m going to hell if I have an abortion?
No, honey, I don’t.
“I believe in you. I believe in you with every cell of my being.”
